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The walls between the universes are sealed

Now, just because I will post fic in a few minutes does not make this post any less meaningful.

This is about yesterday.

For those that don't know what happened,

glorify made a post about me. Now, when I said about me, I don't mean it was a few snarky comments and a link to something of mine to be ridiculed. Now, that would be far too easy. Far too 'kind'. She posted pictures of me, personal ones from my locked myspace. Not just one or two, but about 10 of them. Now that, alone is pretty bad, but then she was calling me ugly and all of her fucked up cronies agreed with her. I wonder how many of them have been called ugly before now and know how much it hurts.

Shame on anyone on her friends-list that did. Shame on those too that didn't tell her it was out of line.

And why did she do it? Because months ago I put in my add-me entry that she was childish. Oh, I wonder where I got that idea from hmmm?

Of course, she made an 'apology' but that's transparent. If you happen to read this, I want one. A sincere, mature apology. No text speak, no caps and certainly one that is more meaningful then that one is. And I want it to be a public one in a comment here, for everyone to see.

Darla said it best, that we are the weird kids that are picked on just for being different. In essence that's exactly what this is. People complain about the fandom rotting and then when someone does something different, they jump on it, tear it to shreds in a heart beat. There's too much pain and suffering in this world for there to be more.

I'm a fragile person, some of you may realise this. I haven't had it particularly easy and the past year has been hard enough without having her interfering.

I once was much more active in the fandoms, posting in various places. That's how I met some of you. But now, with all that's happened, I'm content to remain here, in my safe little shell, away from everything.

Just like I used to do at school, when I used to hide away from the bullies. I guess I figured now I was older that I wouldn't get people like that before. I guess not.

Yet in this fandom I've been called a homicidal maniac, I've had people saying I must have been molested as I child, I've had everything I do torn apart and people outright ignore my stuff even though it isn't all gore and death.

One of the craziest things someone said to me is 'well they don't sing about what you write or bring it up in interviews'. Have they listened to MCR's songs? They mention dressing in drag, rape, murder, suicide, death, canibalism... Honestly, they should be more surprised people aren't doing stuff like me. Even though I mostly do smut.

Anyway. That's what I've got to say about it.

To all the people that have defended me, agreed with me and stood up for me, thank you. I truly appreciate it. The world is a better place for you all.

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Yeah, it's funny how the kids who should pull together jump at any opportunity to rip pthers apart, listen doll I don't read everything you write cos hey I have my squicked too, but fuck if people want to call us perverts then fuck them I'm a pervert but at least I know what I am. I'm not some immature, insecure person that needs the anonymity of the internet to make themselves feel better. |kiss and hugs|

Yeah I know, especially since Gerard always says to look after each other and stuff. *snugs* I know. Yeah, you are:P *snugs* Thanks< 3

listen you bring a smile to my face everytime, that's a gift, you're dynamite bb (see what I did thurr?)

Awww, i'm glad. *giggles* Awww< 3

:D

Now just keep being the fab dude you are!

*blushes*< 3

|snuggles and loves|

*sits in your lap and kisses* You are such a fantastic person, so please don't EVER base your self worth on small minded IDIOTS. I know you're fragile, and I think we all are, to our own degree, but the best thing to do in these kinds of situations, is to say "fuck it." It's so not worth it. I can't even believe that she posted those pics and did all that to you, but you know what? She doesn't know you. She's a fucking cunt, and who gives a shit what she thinks anyway?

I know it hurts though. I've been called my share of names. Ugly and fat being the two that hurt the worst, but I try not to let it affect me too much. I know I'm a good person and that's all that matters.

But for the record, you are NOT ugly. Even if you weren't good looking (which you are! <333) it wouldn't matter. You have a beautiful soul, which makes you completely gorgeous by default. However, you were blessed with both. ;)

♥

*snuggles* Thank yous, you're so sweet and kind and full of niceness. I try to, but it's hard sometimes, you know? Yeah, you're right

*cuddles* At school I was called it a lot. I figured people would grow up after thta but alas. (And you're neither of those things:*< 3)

8blushes* You're far too sweet:* *clings*

*CLINGS* Aww, I love you :D :D <3333333333333

I know how you feel, I was posted in

madradrant again hahaha. I found it hilarious this time, though, because not only was I only posted for me being a mod at

lolscenequeens, I made a post in THAT comm saying I was done being a mod and the people came to my post and posted my pictures THERE too, probably thinking it would upset me. It's so childish to think that grown people act like that. Even people MY age that act like that. You'd think there was a point where people would just grow the fuck up.

As for what you write: that's exactly what it is, writing. It's totally fake. You're not hurting anyone by writing what you do, so people need to get the fuck over it.

People who commented her post are just looking to make themselves feel better. It must not be a very happy life being such a douche bag.

That's just crazyness. It's so stupid, I'm sorry they did. *pokes them* Yeah, I wish that was true The cunts.

Yeah, they're all so stupid for thinking that... sigh

Yeah. *nods*

I was wondering what had happened and then I read this and Darla's post and I couldn't help feeling appalled. I can't believe someone could stoop to such a level of immaturiuty and pettiness. And those aren't even the correct words to use because quite frankly what she did is disgusting. I can't believe someone could do such a thing. WOW! I'm stunned. I don't understand why people are so crude.

Whatever. I'm not gonna keep babbling on because then we'll be here until next year.

I love you. You are one of the most amazing people I've had the pleasure to meet [even though we havne't really]. Don't listen to what people say because you're a bueaitufl person with a heart of gold.
♥

*cuddles* Well, now you know. :) It's so awful no? me either, it's so stupid:( Ugh:(

*cuddles* yeah:) Love yous

You're so sweet *blushs and cuddles*

I think what she did was despicable, and while I know that not everyone gets along all the time, not everyone agrees, that was a whole new level of low in my book. It's so far beyond making a shitty comment or disliking your writing; that's prying into someone's personal life, where she wasn't wanted and didn't belong.

When I saw her post, I put myself in your shoes and I know how that feels; I know what it is to be called ugly by other people and I feel hideous on a daily basis, and to have a bunch of people sitting around, gawking at pictures of me and validating that fact would literally rip me up. :( I know I was bashed and called a hypocrite by her friends, but honestly? I don't care. It's hard for me not to say something when people feel the need to get their fucking jollies by sitting around and spreading hate on the internet; especially when it's spreading hate about someone who is sweet and wonderful and gracious like you.

You're a kind and gentle soul. If people judge you based on fiction - something that is a complete fantasy (and we ALL - not some - ALL have our dark fantasies), that is just ridiculous. I don't think it's fair to judge someone's character based on something healthy like writing and getting ideas and feelings out.

I really like you and I could see us being really good friends for years to come. Seems like you have quite a deal of people around here who feel the same way. Keep being you, and everything will work out in your favor in the end.

Sorry I wrote a novel. =/

Me too. I don't get why she did it, even now. yeah it is. This is the lowest thing anyone's ever done I think. *nods* you're right.

Awww you're so sweet. I've been called it too, but never at that level. I hate that. *strokes* You did the right thing and I'm so glad to have a friend like you thta would do that:) Thank you

*snuggles* yeah I know, it's so fucking stupid. Yeah, but then to actually do the killing right?

*smiles* I can too, thanks< 3 *cuddles*< 3

Yeah, I don't think we'll ever get why she did it, and we're probably not supposed to, because none of us would do anything like that.

Like I told you before, you had every right to know your privacy was being invaded. Anyone would want to know, even if it's hurtful. :( I'm just glad you're not mad at me. :) *snuggle*

I remember when I first posted my story and it was right there in the warning that it was GORE. Yet people still read it and gave me all this crap about how "disgusting" it was. You knew it was gore. Warnings are for a reason. *rolls eyes*

:) I hope you're feeling better now. *pets*

Yeah, you're right:)

I know, thank you again

Yeah, it's stupid. I've done that before. Why the fuck do they read then?

I am:) I'm justing posting the fic for you:)

Hi, I know we don't know each other, I'm Megs' girlfriend (plaything <3)

I just wanted to tell you that from everything I've seen and heard, that you're an kind, sweet, and generous person. not to mention adorable :). I thought it was horrible what she did and I really felt for you, but dont worry, she'll get hers.

I send you good vibes and hugs :)

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OMG HI. <3

*ahem* Sorry.

LOL STOP SPAMMING PEEP'S POSTS! lol jk ilyu2.

LOL SCREW YOU, BITCH.

that's what friends are for <3

Ohh yeah, baby. Come on, let's scissor.

Hi *waves* Awww<3 I recognise your name *nods*

Awww thank you *bluhes* < 3 Yeah, it was. Yay for karma! *awaits it*

*sends vibes*;)

*hugs* You are not ugly and you have a beautiful soul, and an amazing talent. People who don't get what you are about or do not get you can fuck off. You have a whole lot of other people who love you and got your back. I agree on everyone's comments. I know we hardly know each other but, I feel in time we probably will. I'm martyxdressler if you ever want to talk on the aim thing.

*blushes* Aww, thanks < 3 I wish they would. All I want is ot be left alone by people like that. *cuddles*

Thanks< 3 I probably will in a few days *nods*

I can tell you that you really have some gems by your side sweetie and that is all you need. ek! Can't wait to talk to you :D

Yeah, you're right:)< 3

I have known you for almost ten years and homicidal maniac is not a word I would associate with you at all hun, sorry you've had to go through all this shit with her and maybe she'll learn her lesson. I've seen some low things in my time but that stunt of hers is one of the lowest, I'm glad there are so many people fighting for the underdogs :D

People like that can't see whats beyond them and can't comprehend the fact that there are unique people out there and that's you hun, I've never known anyone else like you and probably never will :D

*huggles*

Yeah *snugs* I havn't gone crazy yet... *twitches* Maybe she will. Yeah it certainly is. Me too:)

I know *sighs* Thansk < 333

I didn't find out what happened until the "apology". I am so sorry. What a pitiful person she is, really.

I'll never understand some of the hate that gets thrown your way, really. I just don't get it.

Yeah, it's so... ugh *cuddles* yeah, she is.

I don't know. The ironic thing is the first gore fic I did was MCr and I posted it in a few places and people loved it. Not a single bad comment was made about it and it's never once been mentioned in fuck you. Yet now, for some reason, it's changed for some reason. I don't know why and I've nnever understood it.

Oh God, okay, I had no idea this happened. So I'm going to respond to everything a bit weirdly now...

Your pictures? That's sick, online or not it's a personal attack and if she actually felt guilty about it then she never would've done it. That's still a form of abuse and bullying, fuck that 'it's just the internet' shit, it can actually have an effect on people.

Ha, MCR sing about every twisted thing under the sun, and the fandom complains about kink? Ugh, they're all so stupid. I like the things you write, I know I don't comment though since I've become a horrible lurker and I haven't been around on lj that much for a while, but I like that you do something different, otherwise we'd all just be seeing the same thing posted over and over and over...

I have noticed now that there are some kind of fucked up 'elite' or whatever in the fandom. I don't get it though, they're just the ones that talk the most trash about people and make the most bitchy posts, suddenly everyone's kissing their ass because they're afraid them. They need to get over themselves, stop thinking it's some kind of popularity contest.

Stupid, stupid, stupid, asshole, high and mighty fuckers that think it's okay to hurt someone online when it's just the same as hurting them to their face. I wish I'd known about this before -_- I feel bad that I didn't get to defend you, I know I don't get to talk to you much but I still think you're awesome and nice and don't deserve to be hurt like that at all.

Picked on for being different? THIS IS THE REASON I LEFT SCHOOL, I DON'T WANNA LEAVE THE INTERNET! D: haha pfft I like being different, even if it's in a fanbase where supposedly everyone's outcast and different- apparently not. Still have the popular kids to deal with.

*tackle hugs and kisses* Yay for being different! I'm really angry for what happened to you so I'm going to go invent a machine that allows me to physically beat people up through the internet. <3

Ok, before I reply to your comment: *giggles insanely at your icon*

*snugs* Some people didn't know the details, hence this post.

I know, I don't get how she didn't understand that it was wrong before doing it.

Yeah, it's utter insaity. Sigh. Awww *pets* you should comment, I like comments:) *hopes you do* yeah exactly. We're not all clones who love Frankie/Gerard fluff

Yeah it seems that way. Yeah, it's so stupid. If Gerard or the others actually knew what they did they wouldn't want them as fans.

Yeah, just cause they can't look me in the eyes they think it's ok. Thanks<3 yeah, I think others missed it too.

I KNOW! Same here. Yeah... asses.

*snugs* Different is good. Yay! *awaits eagerly*

Hahahha Brendon is too awesome in that video with the kicking and the faces THE FACES aaah so awesoooome. hehe

^_^ okay, I'm going to try to defeat my lurker ways and comment! -_- every once in a while, the lurker plague gets you and you get a rash and the rash seems to grow when you type a comment BUT what people don't know is that by commenting you're one step closer to the cure! I don't know. Maybe I don't have a proper definition for the lurker plague... hmm.
But anyway, all that was leading up to was that I'm gonna try and comment more :D

I actually always think that you know, that Gerard wouldn't really like half the fans they have if he really knew what they were like. He'd probably kick their- oh, maybe not. He'd maybe get Bob to do it for him though O.O

AHA! I HAVE DONE IT!! I HAVE BUILT THE MACHINE TO- oh it just makes toast... brb making adjustments.... AHA! oh, no. I'm gonna need some time with this inventing stuff... meanwhile *more huuuugs*

He scares me in it. the ickle freak :P

Yay! I hope you can *crosses fingers* yeahh i know:( *giggles*

Yeah, true. :D And Ray too!

*giggles* Awwwwwww!:D

I understand you're fragile and trust me, I know how you feel cos I'm the same way. I've had people say bad things about me and hurt me because I'm different. And even though it's tough, you've just gotta try and not let it get to you cos otherwise it'll end up controlling your entire life and you don't want that. Just realise that

glorify and all her stupid little friends are just immature kids who clearly have no life outside the internet, and have to get their kicks hurting others.

Homicidal maniac? Puh-leese. That is one thing I know you're definitely not. I've told you this before, so you should know this already - but you're a wonderful person and I can honestly say I feel very lucky to be able to call you one of my friends.

And to judge people based on what they write is ridiculous... it's like, hello, JK Rowling came up with the Harry Potter series and that stuff is farfetched as hell. Do they call her crazy? No, they call her a good writer. How about Stephen King who writes all those horror novels? People don't go around calling him a homicidal maniac or a psycho, people just say he's got talent as a writer. So to judge you on what you write is ridiculous. If half those people who read your stuff actually got to know you as a person, they'd see what I see and do you know what I see? A kind, smart, amazing guy and a loyal friend.

I love you to death sweetie and you know I'm always here for you no matter what ♥ I'll always be here to defend you, til the end!

*cuddles lots* I try and... I fail sometimes, when it's like this. I know in a few days I'll be ok again. It's just... hard that it was so personal. I hate them all.

*blushes* you're so sweet.< 3 We haven't talked on MSN for awhile *has just realised we were meant to* D'oh. I'm lucky to clal you mine:)

Yeah, it's nuts. And what about people that do films, are they crazy too? It's insane. *blushes* You're so sweet and kind. Love yous

Awww:D i'm so glad I have friends like you.

You shouldn't care what other people think, but it's hard, I understand that. Just remember that all the people who care about you can see how caring, intelligent and funny you are, amongst other things :P

So don't let it get you down xoxox

Yeah, but i was so many people. it's hard not to. Sigh. I hate her. < 3 You're so sweet

Thousands of people followed Hitler but they weren't right to do so, and neither was what any of those people said right/true.

Heheh good point, you're so smart:*

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Hi

Thanks. I really don't understand her at all, not that I do anyway. Yeah, it's easy to say that, but seeing about 10+ people agree with what she said...?

Thanks I guess

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Yeah, it's frightening! *hides*

*shrugs* i don't know. It's strange. *hits ehr and them*

*cuddles*

I once was much more active in the fandoms, posting in various places. That's how I met some of you. But now, with all that's happened, I'm content to remain here, in my safe little shell, away from everything.
I'm so glad I met you when I did then. I think you're a sweet, loving and kind person and if some snotty little cunt can't see that then that's their loss. I'm glad you're in my life.

*snuggles lots*

Awww I'm glad too, you're so sweet:* *snugs* Thanks< 3

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