They can't help where they came from

Ugh, another shit sleep.

I had to have so many of the pills last night it's unreal. I've now gone through a third of the total.

Outside looks so magical. At some point it's snowed and settled, so it looks so perdy.

Nother pill for me.

I tried writing but no ideas would come. I typed a line, hated it and deleted it. Then typed another. Same thing. Sigh. Looks like Worm/Mikey will take awhile.

Tomorrow looks like it'll have to be a slow day, despite the gig. I'll be spending most of the time indoors and, when out I'll go slowly. I'll definately have to have a Mcdonalds or something and I won't join the line until it's moving. I'll take some of the pills with me.

I'll also have to be proped up against something and preferably have to have the place where I was at Panic! or 30 Seconds. I'll probably sit out most of it.

I know that probably sounds like I'll have no fun, but that's not true. I'm to fragile to go near the pit and my height means I get a pretty good view at the back anyway. That and I don't wanna take chances.

I've got no desire to collapse.

This is mostly bought on by me walking this morning and feeling extremely unsteady.

I'll try not to make it suck.

Well yes, I can see you're serving drinks

It's gone! Huzzah! it's been throbbing in my head all fucking day, making me want to blow my brains out but, finally, it's gone away. How long for, I don't know.

I took some neurofen and I think that got rid of it, so I'm taking the packet (along with the codomine) tomorrow.

It will be a slow day, but we'll manage to go to all the good places with breaks for sitting in the dark somewhere.

Ayway, since I'm now much happier (and not in constant pain) I'm now optimistic.

Huzzah!

Let's see how long this lasts