Pray I don't alter it any further

I swear, when I come here I shouldn't bother saying 'I'll go home on *insert date*' cause I never do. Only once have I been back when I was meant to, and that was only due to badthings and a concert. Now I'm going back Saturday.

I hate that it's so... annoying to keep coming and going. It's a 6 hourish trip on train and coach to get here and the only shorter route's by car (which is half the time cause it doesn't get sidetracked). Every time I am here although I do like it here and am, to an extent, comfortable, I know it's not home. I feel a bit useless here, with having no comp to go on regularly I can't write, or pester everyone. I can't sleep when I really want some nights cause I end up lying in bed awaake for an hour unable to move. I've got enough trouble with block as it is and I feel that spending time here is like two weeks of garenteed no writing. And everytime I'm here I feel guilted into staying, and everytime I do. I've even stopped packing as I know it gets pointless and I end up staying longer anyway. Everytime I stall, often against my better judgement and sometimes I'm not sure why.

This time I'm sure why. A trip back to Tunbridge Wells for Star Wars and Kerrang today, then gonna write on myself again cause the writings gonw now.

I can't believe the offical Kerrang! site has Frankie's name as Frenk Lero. Worst spelling error ever.

Beast Wars reminds me of mornings.

I hate the weather.

I wanna go to the Kylie exhibition thing in London.

Later tonight I'll do icons of new!Ian hair and Gerard with writing on him. If I can figure out the thing on here and not make the computer melt.

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Would it have been too much to ask to give the order before I gave him the bloody lightsaber?

Ahh Noel Fielding is love. He was so adorable on Buzzcocks. Donny was just.. ugh. I wanna hit him. Simon was brilliant. I really must get the Mighty Boosh on dvd.

I've spent the day making lists. Star Wars figure lists. Ones I have, ones I want. The first one was longer then I expected.

Fairy and Piggy have returned to my arms again. I like them there for some reason. I'm odd.

Kerrang's good this week. 4 hot posters, Pete and Patrick (with Pete being all tied up.... who bets there'll be fic by people about that soon?) and Star Wars references. Patrick's adorable. Next week makes me squee. 30 Seconds, MCR, FOB and GC. Ah, happy days.

I have a love/hate relationship with Pokemon Stadium 2. I lose too much, it pisses me off. Half the Pokemon have a punch or earthquake or some insane bollocks like that. Just when I think I'm winning they use one of those to kill me, it's so fucking frustrating.

Going to Tunbridge Wells tomorrow (Star Warsness FTW!) and... well, that's it. I'll try and be on aim too 9I was meant to tonight, but didn't)

Yay for Desperate Housewives, well, what I saw of it. The annoying one died!

I've got an idea for a fic in my head, which I might write (ghods I hate physically writing) but I can't decide on the pairing. One of them is Ray, I know that much. I might just write and work in names later. (Also I'm not sure if it'll be pure smut or end up with eye gouging and torture).

I've fics to read later (2 Sean/Oli).

People are crazy though when it comes to Oli. Mod's on theacademyslash didn't accept a post just cause the user used a BMTH icon. That's fucking screwy.

And here I am, signing off again.

Edit: Anyone got pictures of Ray showing skin or his crotch?