It's just so cold

[shadow_hive]

We went to Hever Castle today. It was interesting and pretty. It's cold.

Didn't sleep until 5, even then it wasn't a real sleep at all.

If you don't like the way I live my life then just piss off. I don't want to hear how I'm wasting my life or letting it just 'fly by' me. You think that? Then go, because I don't want it.

It's better to let it fly by then to be out all night drinking or doing drugs or getting fucked. I'd rather not do those things.

You know something else? I'm so physically far away from whatever you people would call my 'real life' that it doesn't matter to me and that all that's here is being with my babu and little things that are, apparently, worthless and crap to anyone that's not me.

You think any of those things you either go now or you stay and keep your mouth shut.

Worry on your own damn time.

Comments

[lapifors.livejournal.com]

Um. I apologised and said I wouldn't talk about it anymore. Sheesh.

*goes away*

[shadow-hive.livejournal.com]

It wasn't aimed at you, I just don't want anyone else going on about it, which of course, someone has.

[lapifors.livejournal.com]

*feels like even more of a dick* sorry. I didn't know someone else had complained as well. I do have full intentions of not bringing it up ever again.

[mrsvandertramp.livejournal.com]

pardon me for caring
i merely made suggestions to which you could have said "no thank you i like how i'm living my life"
but whatever
i've always been your emotional punchbag

[shadow-hive.livejournal.com]

I could have, but I didn't. Can't change that can I?

Emotional punchbag? What's that supposed to mean?

Scratch that, I don't really want to know, I'm not in the mood.